I’ve been struggling with an acute, but also, somewhat dormant fear that some catastrophic event will happen soon. Let’s call it an end of the world prophecy, something of the freak asteroid colliding with earth, or atomic explosion type of disaster.
Outwardly, I don’t express this fear to anyone I come across. My friends and acquaintances just think I’m this happy-go-lucky kind of guy, living out my days genuinely preoccupied with the love for my wife and my job and my hobbies. But inside, lurking there somewhere, that anxiety is enough to make me glance up and around at life around me; most times with awe, often times with admiration, but as well at times with dread. And I wonder how, or more importantly when something will go wrong.
Do you ever feel this way, too? Or am I somewhat of a neurotic?
Well, I have to say you’re a bit neurotic. But that’s not a bad thing. I find moments like this throughout the day. Usually when I’m watching the news or reading the blogs on the interwebs. I see all these awful things, like our inarticulate youth, global warming, the endless war, not to mention the way we treat other human beings. It’s very easy to be overwhelmed. Some days I think, “I shouldn’t have children. How can I bring a child into this world?”
But then you snap out of it. And you see all the wonderful things that still happen. And you consider that people have been expecting the end of the world pretty much since the conception of rational thought. So yeah, you’re neurotic. But so am I and so is everyone. It’s how you handle the neuroses that matters. And if you can channel it into the right spot… do something productive with that energy… create and rock out… then soon you’ll find less and less reasons to flip out. Or you could do like me and do massive amounts of drugs.
Just kidding, Mr. Prospective Employer Person Reading This. I don’t do massive amounts of drugs. Promise.
